Yesterday was a tough day for me. My experience all day long was feeling other peoples resistance to whatever I was sharing. I found myself just wanting to give up, quit, let go... such a mix of feelings. It was not easy just to let myself have my experience. I felt so misunderstood. We went out to dinner, waiting for the holiday traffic to cease before heading back to the farm after a day of meetings in the city and I had some steamed kale and zucchini. While it tasted good, I noticed on the drive home that I felt full, uncomfortable... maybe the physical experience I was having was matching my emotional experience. Anyway, I went to sleep committed to moving through my experience and learning from it.
What I see this morning is that I am going to put more conscious energy into letting go, trusting God (over there), that while I may feel like my attention to creating what I think will be supportive of others is an expression of love for me.. it may not feel like an expression of love to others... so I can let go.
This morning I sat with Sarah, my soon to be daughter in law, and she shared that she always feels like "not enough" in my presence. I certainly am not committed to that either. I shared with her about how my love can express and she shared that she is committed to letting go of her story... the wedding is less than two weeks away!
So, I am sharing all of this so you can see that the process is on going, that JUICING is a way to support us all in clearing out everything that no longer serves us... and opening up to something new that we perhaps cannot see yet. Open up anyway.
Be gentle with your process, take it easy today, drink lots of water and plenty of juice and ease into food tomorrow while keeping your juice intake high. Sprouts, are a great reentry... chew your solid food well. Your digestive system needs some support as you add solid food.
I love you.
See you next month, please continue to share. You make a difference in MY LIFE.